Fucking Alzheimer’s

I wish I had a mom who remembered. I wish she could answer questions. I would love to know the answers to so many things, not the least of which is who the people are in all the photographs in all the photo albums.

Mom, were you always happy? Did you ever wish you had changed your mind? Did you ever second-guess important decisions in your life? Did I make you proud?

I wish I could ask my mom so many things; but alas, I cannot. Some stupid disease decided to invade her brain and make it impossible for me to do so; made it possible for my dad to wish for death rather than face the possibility of life without her. Left me with a wheelchair-bound mother who stares down at her hands—when one’s not in her mouth—and has no clue who’s in the room with her. And I’ve been left with the sense of a parent, who was vibrant and loving and so very alive, and a plethora of unanswered questions.

Fuck you, you brain-robbing, useless disease that I am, to this day (and every day), so afraid of inheriting.


Gun control: a tired subject, again

We don’t need gun control, we need people control.

Yea, I know, that phrase causes all sorts of people to get angry at me. You can imagine the reasons why. Controlling firearms has been a hugely contentious subject for a long time, both sides at odds. How about we pay more attention to the people purchasing the aforementioned? How about making it impossible for anyone under the age of 25 to freely and easily gain access to something that will kill another living being. Cat rental companies have done it; you cannot rent a vehicle before the age of 25. How about going a little more in depth on first time gun buyers? Maybe then they would’ve caught the 19 year old mental moron who opened fire on a bunch of school kids. Maybe schools, counselors, parents, kids should pay more attention to the signs around them. And perhaps the FBI and other law enforcement agencies should take more seriously the threats called in by concerned citizens. How about controlling the ammunition required for something like an AR-15? I bet that stupid kid didn’t have the wherewithal or tools to make his own.

Times have changed drastically since I was a kid; I don’t envy children or their parents nowadays. But we have to get real about the issues here. To quote an annoying cliche: guns don’t kill people…

The only form of gun control that will work is a revised form of vetting, to ensure that these weapons are placed in the hands of humans who are not mentally challenged, insane or way too young.

But I believe I said this a few months back already…

Suicidal uncertainties

It’s hard for me to understand how people can kill themselves, why people kill themselves. For fuck”s sake, pack a bag, get away from the situation, escape!

There has to be a better solution. Death is final. There is no coming back from that. You can always come back from vacation with a changed state of mind. There are professionals that can help you with pretty much any issue you might have. Never mind many of these depressed people are surrounded by friends and acquaintances, all of which are willing to help, if only they are brought into the confidence of this person.

I know people are wired differently, and suicide is not something that I would ever consider. Perhaps I’ve never been placed in a situation where suicide was even an option; and no, I don’t mean wartime. I guess I’ve always tried to look for the solution to my horrible problems. Maybe I’m just not a person who gives up, not sure if that’s the problem with suicide victims. And any rate, I don’t get it!

Here’s what happens post-out: your friends wonder what they missed seeing, they question themselves and their motives. Your family gets pain, funeral expenses, interminable questions, and the lifelong uncertainty of “could I have done something, anything?’

Sorry but, selfish as hell.

Freedom of speech

What is freedom of speech? The way I always understood it was the ability to speak your mind, to have your ideas heard, to make your opinion count, to ‘get the word out’ without fear of retaliation or censorship. But nowadays, apparently our illustrious millennials believe otherwise. In colleges around the country booked speakers are being kept from their auditoriums by angry students who don’t want to hear what they have to say; some even going so far as to hurt them and the moderators.

Article 19 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights, adopted in 1948, states that: Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and expression; this right includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media and regardless of frontiers.

The First Amendment (Amendment I) to the United States Constitution prevents Congress from making any law respecting an establishment of religion, prohibiting the free exercise of religion, or abridging the freedom of speech, the freedom of the press, the right to peaceably assemble, or to petition for a governmental redress of grievances. It was adopted on December 15, 1791, as one of the ten amendments that constitute the Bill of Rights.

Freedom of speech goes both ways, dumbasses; and it definitely doesn’t mean you have the right to put someone in the hospital. Freedom of speech provides the right to peacefully speak against something you believe is wrong. It allows you a platform from which to be heard. It keeps you from being prosecuted for speaking your opinion. But it goes for EVERYone!

While your opinion matters to you and a handful of your peers, you should have the courtesy to allow others the same option of expression cuz, you know what, you are NOT the only people living on this planet and going to college. You do not have the right to prevent others from being heard, or from hearing what someone has to say.

Millennials, get real; put your grown up Underoos on and exists as part of the society you live in. The real world is out there and you’re going to have to be part of it and live by the same rules the rest of us live by, like it or not. No one, except your non-spanking mommy and daddy are gonna give you a blanket and a lollipop overtime something goes wrong, or any time the world hands you a rotten apple instead of the pretty banana you wanted. And no, you won’t get a trophy for participation. You want a trophy? Earn it!

I’ll stop there, though I really could go on and on…

Year-End Arctic Chill Persists; Ice and Snow Loom from Florida to Maine

(borrowed from Bob Henson · January 2, 2018, 2:27 PM EST)

How kewl—well cold, actually! This photo brilliantly represents the crazy arctic weather the entire country has been experiencing. One of the warmest years in U.S. history ended with one of the coldest blasts ever recorded east of the Rockies for the week between Christmas and New Year’s.

In Florida, our high today was an extraordinarily (especially for early January) rare 47°. At 10:30 this morning I left my meeting, driving my Silverado through cold rain pushed by 20 mph gusts; the temperature at the house was 36°. Let me tell you, I’m über happy I chose the truck today! No clue what might’ve become of me in the Miata.

Understandably, our unusual chill pales in comparison to those being experience by our Northern friends; but snow in Jacksonville, FL has to be acknowledged! Next to that, the Muskegon, MI lighthouse on the last day of 2017. Stay warm my friends!

Sowing the seeds of destruction

The savanna elephant population declined by 30% (about 144,000 elephants) from 2007 to 2014, according to the Great Elephant Census.

One more in a line of stupid idiotic decisions made by the carrot, this one show a level of idiocy previously untapped by the man. The absolute lack of caring for this planet, that we ALL inhabit, shows what a total mistake our current administration is. It appears the wholesale destruction of a species that is already endangered is on this idiot’s list. Self-serving, shallow, uninspired and generally just dumb, his whole last year has been an effort to pay back those that got him in office, one way or another. This is just one more in a long line of reasons why the carrot will be, without a doubt, the absolutely worst and most destructive president the United States has ever seen; that I will probably ever seen.

I don’t know if our planet, and our pride, can withstand another three years of this Tweeting fool. What can we do when they pass laws and make decisions behind our backs?! I’ve tried writing letters, voicing my dissent, I’m trying to stop things I can in miscellaneous ways, but it doesn’t seem to be doing any good. I’m so frustrated and angry!

How can the ‘leader of the free world’ be this level of uncaring moron? Does he ever even consider the ramifications of the decisions he makes? The stupidity present in this, and so many other, decisions made by this man who calls himself our president, is so astounding I am left lacking for words.

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